Thursday, May 28, 2009

"I'm melting ...."

Well, I'm not made of stone, after all. I'm crying for the loss of hope that my mom will ever be "my mom" again ... since she died this morning ... without ever really wanting to speak with me again.

As I have expressed elsewhere, I feel as if a door I have been trying to push open for 22 years has suddenly been removed. Not opened, just gone.

Grief sucks, but it paves the way for truly moving on.

2 comments:

Julie-Ann said...

Oh, I am so very sorry.

Some how I feel she is realizing her mistakes in life. Be open to your dreams during the next few months.

Sharon said...

Thank you, Julie-Ann. I was actually afraid of what I might dream last night (not open), and (probably as a result) woke up with a huge headache.

I'll try being open, and I'm sure that will yield better results!

Hugs,
Sharon